The Feeling: Preface
The Feeling - Preface
by Clayten Tylor
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The Feeling, by Clayten Tylor.
Swedenborg's writings were my anti-depressant "medication" during my mid-life crisis. How a person with my background – having had no traditional religious education and raised by a single parent, non-believer Mom – could ever have been introduced to Swedenborg's spiritual writings was only by a miracle.
My peers were all drugged or drunks; most of them promiscuous, materialistic, and angry. The wild birds were my true friends as they would follow me on my runs, eat from my hand in the park, and occasionally, land on my windowsill to encourage me in my quest for truth. I can hear them talk to me now from miles away. They helped me to open my inner hearing and Swedenborg's writings helped me to bring acceptance to that bird-level awareness of knowing.
S wedenborg's writings brought order, logic and reason to my life. His was a sensible religion, in the sense that it awakened new feelings within me. It was his religion, but he allowed me to understand and interpret it in my own "New Age" way.
The only caution with having your mind "fried" with spiritual knowledge is to stay grounded and to not to be led-astray or confused while the inner world is being revealed. It was revealed to me, first, through outside forces such as the birds and then through the synchronicity that happened everywhere in the little things. Only later was the inner world revealed through my dreams and visions.
My first " v ision" happened in my living room at two o'clock in the afternoon. It was a vision of a tall, glowing white Guardian Angel. Just the feeling of its Presence brought me to my knees crying and kissing its feet and was the first of many visions. Although I do not know what this vision really was, I think that it might have been what is described as "seeing the burning bush," for it created in me a burning desire to be a better person.
Any other person would probably have been diagnosed as a mental patient as I would have been if I had ever tried to describe any of my visions to a doctor. Just mentioning the idea of "seeing" God would have had me committed. Over time, I changed the terminology as I understood the experience more fully: it evolved from "I saw Jesus," to " I saw the Guardian Angel."
At the time, I knew that my logical mind could not comprehend or interpret correctly the visions that I perceived. Though it may have been a hallucination and I was crazy , I did not tell a doctor. Had I done so, I am sure that I would have become another statistic – one of the many millions prescribed anti-depressant medication for feelings of unhappiness . I also may have missed my own enlightenment experience, something meant to happen to everyone during the middle years of our life.
by Clayten Tylor
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