The Affection of Love | Book
The Affection of Love:
How to Invoke an Influx of Spiritual Good
by Clayten Tylor
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Spirituality/ReligionKeywords: Spiritual development, Self-improvement, Self help, Numerology.
The Affection of Love
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This book is an advanced guide to spiritual regeneration, the transformation of sensual energy to spiritual love, and then into divine, creative power in preparation for the experience of eternal life. It describes the transition from selfish to selflessness with its resulting benefits of an increased feeling of happiness. It prepares the physical body by the process of right-eating in order to perceive the spiritual body as the sensation of being blessed, which is necessary to perceive the sensation of the soul that comes through the benefits of right-thinking.
The book takes us on an inner journey from the transition of our selfish sensation of separateness to the birth of conscience with its painful reevaluation of life, into the restitution needed to enter the higher vibrations of Divine love. The journey is not for the weak, but each step strengthens the will-power that increases our affection of love and enables us to forgive and move forward to unite with the higher self in a pulsating feeling of heavenly love.
The realization is of our Divine nature in a momentary experience that lasts forever as we learn to transition into our eternal self as a feeling of Oneness. This journey is humankind's destiny, which enables each of us to enter into an inner sanctuary that we create as our testimonial to the Great Work of being more than human, of being Divine.
Dedication
I dedicate this book to all the schmucks, because they cause the negative energy, which gets transformed into spiritual power during the resurrection to eternal life.
Acknowledgement
I acknowledge the after-glow of spiritual love, because it unites the internal with the external self, and increases the feeling of happiness more than any other kind of love.
Introduction
Before I can reveal the spiritual principles of the affections of doing good, and being good, first we must discuss their opposite affections of doing evil, and being evil. The feeling of evil embodies itself into all humans in the same way that the feeling of good embodies itself; one person becomes a saint, and the other, a schmuck.
I think of human nature as the ability to focus down into triviality, to concentrate on details. From the perspective of the soul it causes pain. A schmuck acts out that pain, which becomes the collective suffering of humankind. There is no other word to describe a schmuck, but evil. They cannot perceive anything, other than selfish love.
On the other hand, spiritual love, which is also called mutual love, is an unselfish kind of love. We can only sense spiritual love when we use it to do good. The action of spiritual love when doing good, is reciprocal, because it is mutual. It improves our ability to feel the divine essence, which guides us to be a better person. Mutual love, unites the internal with the external self, and without it, we become a schmuck.
A schmuck has no sense of their spiritual self, because they can not feel mutual love. They are addicted to selfish love and cannot even imagine the feeling of being loved. They have no motivation to improve, because they have no knowledge of a spiritual life. This is important to understand, because a schmuck does not know that they are addicted to the affection of self-love. To them, there is no such thing as a spiritual life, which, as a concept would help them evolve, and become happy.
In a way, we all start off as selfish. We are addicted to the contracting feeling of self-love. Yet, the feeling of selfishness blocks the absorption of the expanding vital life force that causes enlightenment. Selfishness can only expand as pride. It causes excessive mind-chatter, which then veils the knowledge that transforms energy into spiritual light. That knowledge would normally come through a quiet mind during sleep, when the higher affections of love deposit the spiritual light to grow our spiritual body.
I like to think of sleep as a “recharging station,” which when fully recharged connects us to the One Mind. The effect of that spiritual sensation on the process of eating, further connects us to the feeling of the One Body. The more that we can feel the Oneness of mind and body, the more the mind can perceive the spiritual light. When the mind feels full of spiritual light, we eat with more awareness, and it creates the timeless feeling of a spiritual body made of light.
The light of spiritual love always attracts a schmuck. Yet, it is not because they recognize what is good and true, but because they are threatened by it. The light of good attracts its shadow. A schmuck tries to knock us off the slated path of trying to be good. They are difficult to spot before they spot us. This is why it is important to learn to perceive them first. However, then you have to learn how to deal with them.
It is only the light of spiritual good that attracts a schmuck. Yet, a schmuck has only one purpose, which is to destroy beauty. Each time that they disturb our peace of mind, and we lose contact with the affection of love, we then have to learn how to invoke it again. Yet, as we learn to resolve each temptation by reaching for the affection of love, it actually strengthen s our affinity to the affection for good.
These temptations are spiritual tests, which strengthen the affection of spiritual love. These kinds of tests do not apply to the selfish sensation of lust, such as concentrating on someone and thinking you can make them love you. That kind of temptation is also a test, but it only creates and attracts more of the same selfish beauty-destroying feeling.
We are talking about a spiritual feeling of beauty that is produced automatically as a result of resisting the temptation to respond back in kind. When we wish someone well by mutual love, we produce an after-glow that expands into the feeling of spiritual good. By expanding the after-glow bigger than the previous sensation of love, increases our feeling of beauty. Then, the schmuck becomes our motivator.
By expanding the sensation of good, by using our will-power to reach further out every day, we attract a stronger and stronger internal influx of love in response. Exercising our will-power by sending out an affection of love, acts as a suggestion that causes the subconscious mind to transform our body into a receiving station for higher love.
The spiritual light that results from spiritual good as it is being willed to others as mutual love, is what attracts the schmucks. They rile against it, because the unseen light acts as an irritant to them. Sadly, it makes their own life seem more exciting, but in the same way that lust attracts competition and jealousy. Yet, in our case, we are seeking an eternal state of happiness that results from the spiritual love glowing as spiritual light in our body. The feeling of love glowing is the actual cause of all attraction.
If we were to pretend to surround ourselves in an affection of expanding love until it became light, it is not something someone else could sense, except you. Yet, imagine being a child with this same ability to radiate the affection of love. The child would be open to all kinds of abuse, because love is an attractive force, even to a schmuck. Keep in mind that we are discussing transforming the lingering feeling that results from an injustice, into the feeling of mutual love, and then further into the feeling of universal love. Therefore, we must start with what we are, the hurt. Our goal is to restrain our response to being hurt. When we spend less time on hatred or revenge it automatically strengthens the feeling of spiritual love, and we begin to feel better about ourselves.
It is not magic, it is the effect of sacrifice, which is anytime that we give up something to improve. Yet, this can not happen until after we are at first, really selfish. This is why spiritual development happens later in life. Even though spiritual awareness can start young, it is only after living a full life, does it become easier to restrain our response to being hurt.
Keep in mind that I personally, have never been in a war or any other unforgivable experience where I was attacked by outside forces and could not later forgive them. I am talking about a hidden affection, such as a schmuck, who can disguise their nature by being outwardly good, but inwardly evil; their interior evil acts through them to make them into a schmuck. When dealing with our own interior evil, an example might be, if during a war, a soldier remained very present, because they were incited by a zeal to protect their country. That zeal could protect them from harboring too much interior evil, which they might otherwise hurt themselves with.
Again, we are talking about an inner hatred that results from an outer event, especially if it became hatred that we carried with us long after the battle was over. It is this psychic evil energy, which we associate with the feeling of an injustice that accumulates as a feeling of revenge. The energy is love-hurt, which we are working to transform.
Yet, I am not talking about disassociation or ignoring justice, but about claiming responsibility for our response. At this spiritual level of awareness, we must perceive even a schmuck as being a spiritual test. This allows the affection of love to take on a special human quality. It becomes a spiritual affection of Joy that can quiet the mind to make the physical body feel fantastic. A quiet mind solves most problems. It allows us to perceive the spiritual essence and Joy that quiet possesses.
Yet, to stay in the flow of spiritual good, long enough to experience that Joy, requires maintaining an inner silence until the mind becomes enlightened, filled with light, which then expands out as a feeling of Joy. Expanding this Joy outwards requires both a compression and then a release of energy, and mutual love is the key.
Try to imagine joy as an expansion and contraction of the affection of love as a feeling of warmth and light. This happens naturally, as a result of living, loving, and being human. In fact, we are all just accumulated psychic energy, which is a kind of love-hurt. We are made up of all of those times that we were hurt by love. Yet, when the accumulated pain transforms from selfish to selfless, that same energy that was once pain, is then transformed and felt as Joy.
Just as anger can cause a pulsation in the blood stream, so can the feeling of love begin to pulsate and glow as spiritual light just by dwelling on it. When we can sense spiritual light as a pulsation in our blood stream, the celestial essence of the love, begins to glow as the feeling of limitless light.
Think of the idea of love, and allow the feeling to expand in the body. What lingers afterwards, is the feeling of love as an affection . The feeling of lust also has an affection, but it has something to gain. Whereas the affection of mutual love seeks to give of itself to others. The spiritual affection of love when it lingers as a feeling always attracts a schmuck, like a moth to light. We want to warm the light so that it becomes like a moth to a flame. The lingering feeling of love is an affection of love that is long past, just as the memory of lust is a memory of a love long past. Thus, “Affection is nothing else than love, but the continuity of it” (3938).
As an example, the light of a star, is no longer where the star is now. The light is the memory of that star. Similarly, the celestial affection of Good, is where Divine love lingers as a memory. By pondering the affection of celestial Love, it becomes a reciprocal feeling of Divine love, which we can receive back in kind as light.
The affection of celestial love only becomes reciprocal after it is first sent as mutual-love. We must use our will power to send love, to wish someone well. Done properly, wishing someone well is the spiritual act of doing good. Try it right now. Wish someone well. Imagine them wishing well back to you. Now, send love to someone that you dislike. Now imagine them wishing you well back in kind.
The additional step needed for receiving it back in kind requires the reciprocal motion, which causes a lingering sensation of feeling loved. We require both of these affections of love. We require mutual love, to get things moving, and the reciprocal feeling of celestial or Divine love to cause the other expanding after-glow sensation of love to linger. Doing good, involves using the feeling of effort. We want to harvest the feeling of effort, and transform it to make ourselves feel better.
Essentially, we are learning to set the two inner motions of love into alignment with the two outer universal motions of divine order. Not only that, we are altering the vibration of our own affection for living. We are training our affection of love, to linger until it becomes the feeling of being loved. We can do this merely by attuning with the memory of something we love, and then allowing the sensation of that memory to linger for longer and longer periods of time until we no longer need the memory.
The more we identify with the lingering affection of love as an afterglow by wishing someone well and then releasing it, the more we become identified with that higher love as ourselves. When we exercise our affection of love by extending the time of its afterglow, both as a memory, and as a feeling, it then effects our own salvation. In this way, we cause our own enlightenment, and actually begin to feel eternal.
We are creating the affection of feeling loved, without it caused by any outer condition. The ability to feel loved is possible for everyone, because it is in our collective memory, once we clear our identification with the collective pain. Doing good, is the ability to love others as ourselves, which gives spiritual love its essence. That essence also makes the physical body feel good.
However, it only becomes magic when we initiate doing good for the sake of spiritual good, by have nothing to gain. Celestial good, is the further ability to invoke and then receive and expand an influx of love. All of these states of conjugial love are in our memory as spiritual affections that cause us to be good, and celestial affections which cause us to feel loved in response.
Chapter One: Two Motions of Love
There are two motions of love involved in the spiritual affection of doing good. One motion is mutual love, which produces the other sensation as a lingering affection. Both are the result of our will-power propelled by the affection of love. We need both of these sensations set into motion to remain in the feeling of love for long periods-of-time in an attempt to invoke the celestial affection of Good.
Invoking celestial good by doing spiritual good are the two esoteric motions that result in feeling loved. We stir celestial good into action by using our will-power in motion to produce the spiritual affection of mutual love. The expanding mutual sensation of love inspires a deep affection that lifts the mind. Charity and faith become concepts that blend the spiritual sensations formed by the use of our will power, with the celestial affections of charitable love. Together, they create the inner “church,” which is the celestial affection of feeling loved. It is the result of willing mutual love.
“On this account 'works' and 'doing works' are meant uses actually done; for all charity and faith are in uses and according to uses” (D. L. W. 220). Thus, “the internal of the church is the good of charity in the will” (6587).
The internal sensation of doing good is a charitable affection of giving. The sensation of receiving good, is a faithful affection of knowing. Both draw on an influx of love, which expands our sense-of-self to free us from the contracting feeling of self-love. Both doing good, and receiving good, produce the affections of feeling loved, and being lovable.
These two sensations of love have nothing to do with the personality feeling loved. The personality thrives on emotions that are selfish, or imploding sensations. The spiritual self thrives on the affection of good, as a selfless love in motion. Its motion results in light, which is the faith as verification of love in motion as spiritual good.
At first, neither of the sensations have any outward appearance, such as spiritual light or warmth. Yet, both motions together – willing good, and receiving good – causes the sensual aspect of the personality to expand its awareness. The spiritual light fills the mind, which is felt as faith. The personality then expands to experience its higher self, as the Individuality. Here, we are all individual, but without a separate sense-of-self.
Our personality expands its sense-of-self into its Individuality once it is able to invoke the affection of spiritual good. The sensation of expansion, aligns with the flow of spiritual love passing through us. This flowing sensation of spiritual love, is good passing through us, because we sacrificed everything that previously blocked it. It is the result of our will, now directed outward with love, whereby, we receive celestial good.
The feeling of celestial good always attracts a negative response from the outer world. It attracts schmucks to come along to disrupt the flow of goodness. We need those schmucks, just as we need to displace the feeling of evil within ourselves. They help us evolve enough to perceive what is good and true for ourselves.
“We do not act because of the pleasure that comes from a love for what is good and true until the pleasure of a love for what is evil and false has been displaced” (D. P. 85).
We must first displace what is “evil and false” to perceive what is good and true. The principles involved are in the symbolism of the Holy Supper. It represents building an inner “altar” by first using the affection of good to sanctify the body with love, and then to use the affection of truth to fill the body with light to make it holy. We build the inner “altar” by suggesting it while we eat or drink.
We must dedicate ourselves to understanding the spiritual law of goodness. It is love as a spiritual essence, which is brought to life by mutual reciprocation by right eating and thinking. Our work is to learn to dwell in the affection of good during the sanctifying process of eating and drinking.
We are learning to love the taste of celestial food, which by correspondence is the Life and the Light of the spiritual Sun. This kind of spiritual food is the celestial affection of an influx of love that nourishes our soul. If this were a bread recipe, an influx of Celestial love would correspond to the oil or butter as the feeling of Divine good. When mixed with honey, it would represent the reciprocal affection that causes delight, which is felt as contact with Divine good, as the life that glows as light, like the Sun.
This feeling of the Sun, is what is meant to be blessed. It is an influx of the internal presence of Good, which glows and blesses. The feeling of being “blessed” is the actual Presence of celestial good when it glows. Yet, we want that glow to remain long after the experience is over. In this way, we can feel loved, eternally.
When the feeling of being blessed, is then mixed with the affection of wishing others well, they combine to create the feeling of being loved. This is when the presence of goodness becomes an inner affection of Joy for others. It is the perception of the very soul of life. It is the perception of Joy, which is the birth of the rational level of the mind as the perception of spiritual truth, or faith as an inner Knowing.
Using our analogy of a recipe, the butter melts with the honey to form a crystal, which represents the mind becoming clear and transparent. We experience the celestial warmth of good flowing through the mind as the faith of spiritual light. It is the spiritual Sun, as the feeling of heaven. We then Know, because we can perceive Truth.
In Numerology, to Know is 6 3 9, which is the same as the word, truthful 6 3 9. Thus, “there are two kinds of happiness in the internal man; celestial happiness from good, and spiritual happiness from truth” (1470).
Chapter Two: Being Good
It is when we further apply more heat to the affection of good by using the zeal of love that it becomes spiritual light as a glowing sensation of faith. This is the spiritual happiness from doing good, which is the sensation of light radiating. It is silent until it perceives celestial truth, whereby the mind elevates from the spiritual light of silence into the celestial affection of good, which is best described as spiritual Beauty itself.
In Numerology, (Note: there is no computer program for this; it is all done by hand and intuition) the word, Beauty is a 9 2 2, which is the same as the word Light 9 2 2.
The number two, in the Mystical Kabbalah, is Wisdom 6 5 2, which is when the mind becomes transparent or silent to let in the Limitless Light to shine through the body and out as an enlightenment experience to cause a healing 6 5 2.
To enter the sensual sphere of celestial good, the mind must become transparent, or silent long enough to let in the faith of spiritual Light. In alchemy, the self-consciousness becomes the alchemical Mercury, which we perceive as Beauty, the awesome feeling of Limitless Light. This is the delight and happiness associated with an influx of spiritual good, when it begins to flow and glow as spiritual light.
Spiritual light is everywhere and in everything. Yet, our perception of it only increases after the affection of love flows throughout the entire body to cause an inner Knowing. This is when the affection of love begins to become reciprocal as a pulsation, which moves both inwards and outwards, as well as, upwards and downwards. It begins to radiate spiritual light as a four-fold pulsation. We begin to feel it when we perceive Truth as spiritual light, as an intuitive Knowing of what is Good.
When spiritual light radiates out from a center point within as love, then that is what it meant by doing Good. The entry point is everywhere and in everything. Nothing needs to change for us to perceive it. We just concentrate our consciousness within by an attitude of surrender until it radiates out a spiritual circumference around our body.
Expanding the circumference of love around our body can be done by temporarily dwelling on thoughts such as mutual love, and wishing someone well by then releasing the feeling to the cosmic. The more we can feel the essence of goodness, flow through our body when willing love, the easier it is to move the spiritual light anywhere in or outside the body to heal ourselves and others.
Think of Truth as being the spiritual light of the One Mind. It can be made to glow in everything and everywhere by the use of concentration. However, first it has to be turned-on inside our own body. To turn it on, is done by the awareness of the kinds of thoughts that we are thinking. Each thought creates a corresponding circumstance. If we could see thoughts as color, we would quickly learn to make our thoughts silent.
Judgments about others creates insecurities in ourselves, and judgments about ourselves creates diseases in our own body. It is not until all thoughts stop, does the circumference expand and the circumstances of our life change. We turn the spiritual light on by an attitude of surrender. We sacrifice our mind-chatter, and once the mind is silent, the light turns on. Then we can turn it off or on, at will. This purification of the mind is not done by affirmations, we need help from our Higher Self.
These are esoteric sensations of love, which are unknown subtle motions that are only stimulated by the purification of our own thoughts. The highest thought is wisdom. Yet, it is when the mind is silent. Yet, it is difficult for a selfish mind, because it always associates these kinds of esoteric sensations with sensual experiences like love making. All turbulent emotions are the result of sensual experiences that must be calmed to remain pure, silent, and image-free, during an enlightenment experience.
Keep in mind that when the reciprocal movement of love begins, it also raises our response to the sensations of lust that causes pleasure. It is only when the sensation of the will flowing freely, can it expand into an affection of love for others, and thereby reach the level whereby we feel loved in return. In this reciprocal state of mutual love, we know that our circumstances are our own making. We wake up, and the mind becomes transparent, silent, and only then, receptive to an influx of goodness. The act of doing good, is the reflex action of being Good, which is the source of all love.
How the mind interprets these kinds of celestial sensations depends on the mirror effect of “as above, so below” whereby the lower self reflects the higher self. The soul then reveals our connection to the One Body, as a feeling. The higher Soul is the One body and mind of mankind as a spiritual Feeling. Everyone can learn to feel blessed. To know that no matter what is happening in our life, all is well with our soul.
In Numerology, the word, Soul is a 9 4 4. The number 4 is our cosmic memory; so the feeling of the soul is in our own memory. The word, Cosmic is a 6 2 8, which is the same as God 6 2 8; yet, Memory is a 2 6 8, the same as Hope 2 6 8, (or Elohim 2 6 8, which signifies “all truth”); and together, Cosmic 6 2 8 + Memory 2 6 8 is an 8 8 7, which is the same vibration as the full name Jesus Christ 8 8 7.
We are talking about contact with our own Higher Self. It is at the center of every human being as essence. We can enter it by reflecting on its goodness. Whether we are good or evil, if we can feel good even for a moment, then that goodness fills the body with an influx. When our memory stops responding to sensations of pleasure as sexual, then the affection of love expands into a love for all, and good triumphs.
When we acknowledge the spiritual feeling of good it brings pleasure and glows as light in our body. The spiritual light is faith as proof of our new Understanding. It is the birth of a Knowing, which is the good, as truth, or love as light. You can understand now why it is so difficult to explain these esoteric affections of conjugial love, without actually having the experience of knowing what is good and true.
Chapter Three: Acknowledging Love
We must first acknowledge that there is a higher love, to be filled with the affection of a higher love. Acknowledging love, is to invoke it as a feeling. It is the acknowledgment of love that enable us to hold the feeling long enough as a lingering sensation to be able to use it to do good. Thus, “to love, and not to do good when one can, is not to love, but only to think that he wills and loves” (H. 475).
Yet, to use the affection of a higher love to do good, we must first acknowledge the feeling of love as an affection for the will-to-good. Therefore, we must first believe in a spiritual force that can triumph over evil. Yet, to believe in love as a force for doing good we must first experience its opposite; but for that, we need to learn how to use love for protection in all of our situations.
To believe in a power of good that can be used as a shield to protect us from harm, requires special knowledge. Yet, that knowledge can be obtained by everyone. It is the “mean point” within, which is home to the effortless power of good over evil.
Spiritually, that “mean point” is made from the feeling of the psychic effort that comes from having to deal with all the schmucks in the world. Think of the “mean point” within as having trust in divine providence, which creates the feeling of effortlessness.
“Since evil and good are opposites, there must be a mean point distinguished by equilibrium, where evil acts against good; but because it is not stronger, it cannot advance beyond making the effort” (C. L. 444: 3).
Therefore, schmucks are necessary for the evolution of all humankind. They appear in our lives to cause a painful distraction. These are spiritual temptations, because the turmoil that results stays within, sometimes forever as a lingering vibration of angst after we are hurt, lied to, or harassed by a schmuck.
Schmucks seek to cause an inner discordant vibration in us, so that they can feed on it. A spiritual temptation is when we are tempted to respond badly towards someone who hurts us. Simply, spiritual temptations push us off the path, and test our ability to not respond back in kind, to not become the evil that they represent.
These temptations are spiritual experiences that first test and then strengthen the flow of good, as we learn to respond with love. These tests must take place before we are given any real power to rule over our own thoughts and emotions, to make the mind silent, and thereby, reverse the affections and to automatically re-direct them to love.
We could train ourselves to temper our response, but that is just insulating ourselves from hurt. We then miss the opportunity to transform the negative energy, into good. As we learn to not get frustrated, strike back, or resort to stealing when someone steals from us, we overcome the spiritual aspect of the temptation, and break the pattern.
These are spiritual combats, because they lessen as we learn to defer acting badly, in response. We are learning to defend, but never attack. These kinds of temptations are combats, because the affections that result determine the kinds of sensations that rule over us from hereon in. We are responsible for attracting the combats we experience. If our attention dwells on them, it creates a pattern that remains all our life.
Our attention is the actor in the combat, whereas the other actors, the schmucks, are seeking to distract us and stop the flow of goodness. They are unknowingly jealous of spiritual light. Someone who acts like the “devil” and tries to distract us, was probably never given any attention as a youngster. We only need to see them as children to forgive them, and thereby to feel good about ourselves again.
Therefore, by the use of our attention, we create both good and bad actors who act out our own inner hatred. Think of hatred as focusing our attention, just as stalking someone is seeking attention, and anger is acting out that attention. If ever any feeling of revenge enters into our intention, then we become our own justice. That said, any feeling of selfishness with the intention to do harm, becomes an addictive pattern that keeps most humanity trapped in their own unhappiness.
Bondage is the result of our own attention, which forms into a pattern by the feeling of evil. Most humanity craves this sensation and becomes bound to it. This book is not for them.
Thus, “When a man betakes himself to evils, if then anxiety overtakes him, it is an indication that he can be reformed; but if not, it is an indication that he cannot” (5470).
Sadly, after a pattern forms in our will, it causes us to seek acknowledgment for actually being bad. This means that most schmucks have gone their entire lives without being caught, protected by privilege. They have gone long enough without justice.
However, justice delayed, becomes our own frustration that affects only us. It is these patterns of frustration that can only be lessened if we recognize them as being negative. By acknowledging the frustration, we discover the opposite pattern of goodness. Yet, first we must recognize the “evil” in our own nature, and then release it as an affection of love by doing good.
I imagine the frustration that results when there is a lack of immediate justice on a perpetrator, could make someone want to become a police officer, lawyer, or a judge to seek justice. However, there is another form of justice that does not resort to judgment, which is divine justice.
Chapter Four: Accepting Justice
To understand the meaning of divine justice, we must first recognize our part in attracting the perpetrator. This goes much deeper than that, because we must also acknowledge our judgment as our part in creating all the circumstances in our life. This includes our own illness, if ever we are to rise above it and heal.
Our circumstances began in the past, by our previous thinking patterns, which have resulted in our present outer circumstances. Spiritually, our reality cannot harm us, because it is a reflection of our own thinking patterns. The fact that we cannot remember creating it is why we can no-longer see the cause of our problems.
In addition, if we use medication or alcohol, to disguise the sensation of hurt, then we become both the creator and our own executioner. Lowering our vibration level by debauching to escape our difficulties, blocks our ability to perceive the cause, and this becomes our own justice. Alcohol should only be used to party, not to cry.
Do not fret, for afterwards, we can always go back to these substances once we can acknowledge our pain is the cause of our difficulties. The lesson is to re-discover the spiritual sensation of good again, our innocence. Our goal is to have the feeling of spiritual good be the prominent underlying sensation in our body. Therefore, we need to be able to distinguish it from the other sensations of pleasure, to heal.
The easiest way to distinguish spiritual good from other sensations of pleasure is to know that it alone relies on divine justice. To seek justice is to experience the negative sensations of strife, such as hatred and anger. We must first learn how to respond to strife by focusing on the positive sensations of peace, love, and forgiveness. This is true alchemy, transforming the negativity by the use of the mind, from the vengeful sensations that are caused by injustice, into the spiritual zeal of divine justice.
The lessons experienced by the temptation combats when dealing with a schmuck are invaluable. Being “bad” has its own built-in pleasurable sensations, and by knowing that, we no longer contribute to our own downfall. We want to avoid responding badly to someone who is unaware that their actions are causing pain.
Think of it this way: a child perceives their parents as a spiritual feeling, which is a propensity to respond in a certain way. If they do not get what they want, then they hate their parents. We inherit this sensation of hate and pass it on down, which then rules over us. Someone can only hate others if they hate themselves, and we can only love others if we love ourselves, life is a mirror.
Therefore, we want to learn to fall in love, with whatever we hold our attention on, even the schmucks. This is to live inside the sensation of spiritual love, despite our thinking patterns that have brought us the present day schmuck into our life.
Years ago a very old wise friend of mine said to me to quit trying to fix things by outer means. She told me to start picking up the garbage I saw, and in its place to plant flowers using my mind. To imagine everything as a garden, growing beautiful flowers by seeing the spiritual essence in all things. This is when I started to change from being judgmental, to accepting the divine justice in all the circumstances in my life.
Yet, do not get this wrong, I am not talking about avoiding taking action to stop an injustice, or to not pass judgment on a schmuck once you perceive that they are doing evil. I am talking about recognizing the justice in the events that take place in our own life. We must be in the material world first, to recognize the spiritual principles, and thereby perceive what is good and what it true.
It is often difficult to see what is good and true. If we were to fake an injury to gain a more favorable settlement in a car accident, it might be difficult to see what is good. The money then poisons the entire family for years to come; the partner no longer sees the benefit of hard work, and the children attract partners that want their parent's money. Thus, “it is allowable for every one to judge another by the quality as to moral and civil life, for this is of concern to society” (2284).
In my case, I made money from the liquor concessions of an art center complex. During that time, I became very depressed, but thought it was because I had many friends that had passed away. Yet, once I realized my depression was the result of how I made my money, everything changed. Connecting the two, changed me forever, and prevented a lot more suffering. When I changed my profession, everything improved. Our difficulties guide us to our greater good. Thus, “justice is predicated of divine good, and judgment of divine truth” (A. R.668).
Previously, I was a business and personal development consultant for twenty years with about a thousand regular clients that became like friends. When I retired to write books, each client felt that I would continue to consult just for them. Each one became very upset when I told them it was their last session. Some even took up the cause to bad-mouth me for years to come. I was very saddened when I realized that all of my efforts did not make them into better people. Even those that became millionaires from my advice then wanted a tax receipt. Thus, “judgment signifies the state of the church at its end” (A. R. 719).
I am seventy years old now, and in retrospect, how could I have ever spent the time writing alone for fifteen hours a day if I had any of them calling me whenever they wanted. Thus, “to dwell alone signifies to be under guidance” (A. C 139).
About the Author
Clayten is a Certified Esoteric Astrologer, Numerologist, and Mystic. His other interest includes subjects such as Spiritual Healing, Occult Psychology, Metaphysics, Sacred Science, Mystical Qabalah, Color Therapy, Contemporary Spirituality, Trans-personal Religious experiences; and is an avid Swedenborg enthusiast.