Esoteric Astrology: Scorpio Balancing
Esoteric Scorpio: Your Key To Relationship.
Transformation: Motion away from Separateness.
Your opposite sign Taurus, the color red-orange, is the sign of selfless devotion and therefore has a deep understanding of the meaning of love. But without a suitable object to shower their love on, a Taurus has a tendency to excessive self indulgence, and to manipulate material resources for purely personal pleasure because of an overvaluing of worldly goods and money stemming from a lack of self-worth. Taurus' lesson is to learn to allow the affectional impulse to flow freely by giving and receiving love without attaching conditions to giving love.
As a Scorpio the affectional urges have become mixed with the passionate or physical components of love, and the lack of self-worth issues have evolved into self-destructive urges but therefore a deep understanding of the meaning of regeneration through sacrifice and death. The task is to manifest the regenerative side of love and not allow the passions to dominate in your giving and receiving love.
The whole 'work' is the atonement - at-one-ment - to express pure affectional love by sacrificing the passionate nature - to rise purified from your own ashes. For without the love nature expressing freely, unmixed with the sexual affections, unconscious self-destructive urges immerge. Then, the lack of self-worth issues of the Taurus, are expressed in the Scorpio as the abuse of power, a 'win at all costs', with the desire for power over others, with little thought to the ideals of fair play or honor - and little chance of atonement.
Atonement and regeneration are synonymous, just as: power and sacrifice, orgasm and death - all require a letting go of a sense of separateness, a merging with the other, or including the divine. The dichotomy for you Scorpio is that all personal power is based on the concept that others are separate (and therefore sexual objects), but the separateness is merely your perception, whereby your abuse of power separates you from truly experiencing the other and thereby avoiding your own transformation.
So your whole sense of self is devised by your power over others which keeps you safe, but causes the sense of separateness - a product of mixing the pure affectional love nature with a sexual overtone. True merging with 'another' is impossible without personality transformation, and that is the most difficult task for a Scorpio. (If a Scorpios' reality is based on sexual power over other's, then what would motivate you, are to keep those false perceptions growing in order to keep your personality powerful and alive.)
So experiencing having 'personal power' is essentially a 'disguise' to remain separate yourself, and since for a Scorpio, sacrificing power usually means suppressing your individuality, that would feel like a dissolution of the sense of self, which to a Scorpio would create great inner conflict, and would eventually be expressed physically as ..........? (you fill in the blanks).
True power can not be experienced without transformation - which is the destruction of personality and its' sense of separateness. Personality requires power to exist; and for personality to transform and loosen its grip, it is only through the exhaustion that ensues from perceiving power as being personal that surrender takes place and balance ensues. And although this results in a loss of ego, it is the beginning of regeneration and the movement away from separateness. It is in this weakened state that a sacrifice takes place, with its' resulting expansion of power - into a state of at-one-ment, whereby all power is perceived as spiritual - leaving you free to give unconditionally.
Giving unconditionally is a heart issue - not understood by the intellect. It takes a psychochemical change to make the shift; which is brought about through surrendering the process to the One Self, which acts as a subconscious signal that eventually shifts the sense of self through a chemical process, out of the illusion of power being personal, into regeneration and atonement, all brought about by your affections being purified of their passionate perceptions until you have taught yourself to use your power to transform your false perception of self.
Inner Power: Regeneration.
Personality Blockage: Power over others.
Trans mutational Source: Letting-go.
by Clayten Tylor g+